Lerra

3:21 PM, Laidback.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Good friends are hard to come-by. Best friends are even harder to find.
I do appreciate my friends and tried salvaging our relationship even if it's gonna break apart. I'm always the one giving in. Why? Having best friends means protecting them, encouraging them and not embarrassing them by posting their names and stuffs on blogs, displaying it to everyone. Neither do they critisize them, ruining their whole day. This is something personal. Though i know you have all the rights to do it, but please i'm a human here. Think about how i'll feel. Thats why i'm not posting your name here as i know how it feels to let everyone know who you are. I hope you'll understand. I only wish to let them become friends. I did all i could, not only to let the blame be on me, but also to maintain our relationship. Can't you understand? How much it hurts to be in this situation just because of you. Is it just you yourself and you? Try opening up to people, dear. I know you're anti-social but just try to adapt. Tell me when feel awkward. Tell me in person. You said i didn't bother to view your blog. I didn't even have the time to online or switch on the com. When i wanted to explain, you guys always say it's just an excuse. Well what could i say? I didn't even have a chance to explain. Friends don't use harsh words on each other.
When i tried to drop the matter, tried to apologize, you said that a lil spark starts a fire. Fire don't put out easily. So are you the only one that's upset. Am i not? How much it hurts to see those words. Yes, i'm always putting on a brave front. How many times have you seen me cry? When i cry, it means that its beyond how much i could put up with. It has gone over the limit.
I guess it takes time for you&me to cool down. But still i'm sorry.

And i think im not the only one at fault.

I understand that we're different class and some things we won't be sharing some happenings and stuffs but please, forgive and forget.
Even at times, jokes and stuffs that happened in your class, i asked you, you didn't bother to tell me too. You could've asked someone else if i wasn't paying attention to you. Why am i being blamed for everything?

Please, be fair to me.
For this time, i'm sorry for not knowing that you wanted to be alone with me. I'm sorry for everything i've did.
Could you just let it go.?

; Not only you cried, i did too. And not only once.
At least you have someone to pour out your unhappiness with.
Who was there for me when i was feeling down?